Archive | December, 2013

being incomplete is part of being with God

29 Dec

Being incomplete is a quintessential part of being human. We are incomplete in our sullied, tragically flawed personalities. We are incomplete as our egos wage their perpetual war on our Godly selves. Our incompleteness reflects itself in how we view the world around us and the people around us – we long for things we can’t have, we crave to live lives that aren’t ours and we seek to change things that are immoveable. We set forward endless goals, as if they will be an answer to our restless misery.

But there’s a reason why God made us incomplete. For that fragment of ourselves that simply isn’t ours is God’s. We pray for wholeness and we pray to Him. He is there, and he may not supply us with whatever it is we perceive will complete us but he will accept us in our imperfections, he understands our longings and his outstretched hand will give us reassurance and hope. Because it is only then that we realise that being incomplete is part of our humanity. In this life, at least, it is completion.

God has his own incompletion. His incompleteness lies in the fact that we don’t connect with him, we don’t talk to him and we don’t reach out for him. The relationship is a two-way one. We are far too busy running after our missing pieces to realise that.

God, please accept my broken self. Heal me in my pathetic yearnings. Let me sense that there is only one completeness, and that is when my spirit is united with yours.

vanity, vanity, all is…..

17 Dec

The first thing one must remember is to listen. God only speaks to those whose ears are open and ready to hear. Anger, pride, jealousy, greed….all stem from a type of ‘cutting off of the senses’ in order to pursue something egotistical.

The second thing to remember is that idol worship  comes in more forms than the obvious. ANYTHING we put before God is an idol. My motherly ego, for example is an idol. If my motherly pride is hurt, my pain is nothing more than a hurt ego. It cannot go in front of God or I will be blown off course.

The third thing to remember is to always be on the lookout. Our world is full of illusions. We elude ourselves into the belief that giving more of ourselves will result in a better world. God directs us as to when to give, when to take and when to hold back and wait. I pray that I do not walk into a fairy tale world of giving of myself in exchange for worthless goods.

Our life is a constant journey of self-discovery. The more of ourselves we discover, the more we must be willing to put in front of God and to say ‘that’s not me.’