On the eve of the Jewish New Year, I have a request to all of you who have sent me SMS’s, Emails and messages on Facebook. Why can’t we start our new year with a bit of honesty and sincerity? How honest and sincere is it to put my name on your mailing list and press the ‘send’ button? If you have something to say to me, say it from the heart; pick up the phone and just say something I don’t know. I don’t care what it is – I saw such and such and it made me think of you, I’m sorry I’ve been out of touch for a long time but I just wanted to wish you a Shana Tova etc etc. To be quite honest, I would rather hear something authentic and sincere even if it’s not so nice than receive a pile of banale brachot on my i-phone.
This Rosh Hashana, I ask God to guide me and to accompany me. If there is something I do without Him, God help me. If there is something I do by turning my back on Him, God help me. I know I’m nothing, I know that I am no better than people who send banale SMSes but at least God has given me the clarity to see that that is all I am. I am not going to sit in front of my simanim and pretend this is what He wants. I’m not going to spend 6 hours in shul to ‘get that kavana’ and pretend that this makes a damn difference to the master of the world. I would rather just be, no chicken, no honey cake, no pomegranates and no fancy table, just me with Him and hope and pray that he will continue to shine His light on me and guide me to a year of grace. His grace.
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